Friendship as a saving factor

“An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind. “

-Buddha

There’s nothing more hurting than a wrecked friendship. No matter how you were so blissful in the past, a simple mistake can change everything. I am experiencing such guilt whenever the topic is about friendship.

I had a friend, which all of us do, to whom I felt and cherished true companionship. We both have the same attitude especially when it talks about girls. We are sharing problems with each other and treated each other as brothers. We have also experienced fighting and arguing with something but normally, it does not last for days. We have the same taste in choosing petty decisions. We liked the bond of each other until it went to a serious problem regarding the both of us.

I became jealous of how my classmates and teachers treat him. I have thought that he was always the apple of the eye of many people. Whenever I’m with him, he is just the one being noticed by people. I don’t know if they see me or what but one thing is for sure, I got envy with him. I hate those times that we are compared with each other and he always earns the good point. It went to a point that I am spoiling and judging him when he is not with me. Yes, I backstabbed him. I think that is the product of severe jealousy. He received such gossips that it was me who was pulling him down so he got angry with me. It may sound stupid but for me it’s just what I’m trying to prove. I thought to myself that it was not my fault. He did not consider my side whenever he is admired. Then finally, I concluded, it was not my loss; it’s his.

Even after moving-up from juniors to seniors, we still did not talk and even now. He sent me a message just for our friendship to be back but my ears and feelings were closed. Then I realized during these times that it was my mistake. I already understood how I felt when I lose him. It is like walking on a storm without any companion, climbing a mountain without enough gear and eating a meal without a fork. It seemed that conscience was eating my mind. I was the one who had the mistake. I lost my friend. I miss him until now. We don’t talk nor heed each other whenever we are in school. I sent him a message that I’m really sorry for what I have done-that I have been too childish and immature for those things. Unfortunately, I don’t still get a reply from him. I feel lonely every time and that he is happy with his new friend. I am still hoping that our friendship will be back…

Value your friends. Many times, they serve as your brother or sister to you, no matter how crazy or stupid they are cherish each moment that you are with them. Even a single mistake can change what you have been through those happy times.  You don’t know when will be that moment when they leave you but as long as they are at your side, love and treasure them.